She Just Looked Up

Sometimes in life we feel mowed down by the frequency of our trials and we forget who we are. I wrote this to remind myself that if I'll just remember where to look then those trials will serve to refine me not defeat me.

She heard the words there spoken
Prepared to be shared with all
Yet, she couldn't quite imagine
Rising from her need to crawl.
She heard the speaker say
That each soul had priceless worth
Yet, she felt that she had lacked
That value given us at birth.
When she looked into a mirror
She saw no beauty there.
When it came to living life
She felt so unprepared.
Her eyes were often downward
As though they were afraid
That someone would see beyond
The fortress she had made.
Sometimes she would glimpse
At the light another cast
She longed to make a change
Yet, she managed to be last.
She imagined she was missed
As talents were handed out.
She knew she was deficient
Self worth was filled with doubt.
Her smile was long forgotten
Replaced with those worried lines
She wondered if Father noticed
Her there-----that place----that time.....

Still, there on the row ahead
A child's eyes of heaven's blue
Looked deep into her spirit
Then they spoke the words so true...
"Are you Heddy Fadders Welative"?
And she couldn't help but smile
Then she answered "I'm His daughter"
To the question of the child
Then something quite amazing
Happened there that day
Father sent a small reminder....
A child to show the way.
She became his favorite friend
An adopted grandma there
She learned her royal heritage
Was found when she would share.
Her countenance was altered
She glowed from deep within
What changed? . . . she just looked up
Then reflected light from Him...
-Shanna C. Hugie